—– If finding myself was easy i would have done it long, long ago.
Its not, and i’m still here wondering:
Who am I? and what do I want?
Now, It’s 5 in the morning and I’m stuck in my thoughts.
I need to move away. Run, far far away.
I feel like I should start over somewhere. I must have gone wrong down the line or else I wouldn’t feel this way.
The bigger question is what do I want?
I spent most of my time worrying about everyone else. Their needs, their thoughts.. etc. I cared to much, and now I wonder if that was a bad thing. Now, people mistake this kindness and run over me with it. Bah.. here I go again stressing about “other” people.
I’m starting to wonder if I will ever come in the picture.
I give to much, maybe thats a bad thing. I end up hurt often. Its no wonder I’m so negative. I’ve put this all on myself. Once again, somewhere down the line I failed. I made a wrong turn, I suppose. Now, How do I get back? What road to take.
–So many questions. I have no answers to.
My mind is racing, I feel so many emotions right now. I want to write more, but some things are better left unsaid I suppose.
Maybe one day I’ll have the courage to write all my true thoughts, but until then they shall stay locked inside of me. Where only me, myself, and I can hear them scream. I’m sure it’s only a matter of time before they’re loose, but we’ll see.